The scent, the smell it's a heaven & a certain sorta hell a spell that I'm bound to imagining a ghost of what my memory amounts the memory is mostly of emotion the rest is blurred visuals of corrosion auditory residuals, & explosions it gets to me at times thinkin I can rewind the time to the sublime, an enzyme in my mind triggered a hallucination brought upon my frustration a bio complication human anomaly in the human anatomy, dont be mad at me the saddest me is a sadist free of guilt in a castle of memories, all my own, I have built an emotion over spilt milk made a transition smooth as silk a vivid dream but I've experienced this before remember how I felt, now I see it all in front of me I can remember it more am I just enveloped in my imagination or I have I traveled through a time door In memory, loving memory til the end of things, it's not my enemy if I could go back & see them again, I would to experience those moments that made me feel good I can grasp it, even if I'm stuck in present tense like a lucid dream, I fog out the resentments I can hear, see, smell, touch & taste them never wanna forget, dont want to erase them In memory, loving memory til the end of things, it's not my enemy if I could go back & see them again, I would to experience those moments that made me feel good I can grasp it, even if I'm stuck in present tense like a lucid dream, I fog out the resentments I can hear, see, smell, touch & taste them never wanna forget, dont want to erase them

I feel trapped, imagining that I'm stuck me & only me can get me outta this rut but do I have the strength? I really oughta give thanks open my mind to a different perspective change gears on how I'm overly protective of my emotions, mindset, & habits cuz I cant reach my goals if I dont grab it in a toxic routine? arent we all normal to drop the ball so pick it up & roll with the punches aim for growth, take my cold showers, do my crunches meditate so I can set a date for growth along this path I have sworn to myself an oath to be a better person, so stop cursin, not be the worst man that I can be for me snowball effect immediately to grow more easily, see the progress easily so here's the deal I dont care how bad I feel I will myself to keep pushin to be the better me I take my doubts outta the cage & set em free my day to day routine betrayed it wont cut it fuck my comfort gotta be above such a crime to not push my body said socrates a hypocrisy if I dont practice on alot of these philosophies I gotta get offa these doubts control the volume of my shouts give my internal voice a roundabout replace it with a new one, that serves me til I'm done a fun one, that doesnt shun me being a stun gun of a someone I shock that voice, put it in a dungeon so I can end it's consumption] it is my old monster kill it with one hell of a mantra or else I'll come back to haunt ya possessing myself I whisper that I wantcha success I realize is already mine master of my disciplines, I remain devine I am not the same person I was yesterday Yes I have a say that being the same I cannot stay I wanna atleast see minor change in how I'm treated if you cant respect that, then shit, take a seat kid and I probably wont be who I am today tomorrow except for taking morals from now I want to borrow easy for you to judge me if I'm judging myself but I'm not, I focus on my growth & my mental health I am not the same person I was yesterday Yes I have a say that being the same I cannot stay I wanna atleast see minor change in how I'm treated if you cant respect that, then shit, take a seat kid and I probably wont be who I am today tomorrow except for taking morals from now I want to borrow easy for you to judge me if I'm judging myself but I'm not, I focus on my growth & my mental health

[Mose Portal] I def will say summer has been tight lately I have been feeling so right my homie Efrain tells me about a dope event, so me & my man Pizza think about time spent at the pride parade this weekend a fun ass time around dope people we seekin so we decide to head out to the city dressed as a clown & slenderman, lookin real silly so I plan to have a good ass SF day talkin to all the dope peeps in my way so we get there, park a few blocks away & walk back all humans here, straight, gay, queer, latin, white & black smiling faces, lotsa colors all around dolores park the energy is here, all the way til dark we chat up some people, hang out for a while get a couple ladies numbers, with style my toe starts bleedin hella, somehow Pizza gets a bandaid for it but still ow walkin all day on it is still worth it cuz today is a day that's perfect the kombucha this random lady let me sip was expired but hell man, atleast I'm not tired it's late afternoon & I',m just starting today is all together one big party [Pizza] So my buddy MVP proposed to thee that we check out pride in frisco bay I'm like hey dog, I am not gay but I guess we can party as long as there's babes so I put on my clown suit & checked out the scene I saw weirdos, bums, & degenerate normies but my overall sense of the event was a picnic in the park, so i petted the doggy [Chorus] A legendary weekend this had become high energy around me, a day in the sun and to be soon, a night under the moon dancing and getting hyped up havin fun, not giving a fuck! it's all about adventure and staying present doing it all in the moment, and not hesitant and my homies with me we are here a beautiful day in the city cheers

You & me let's stay the night out immersed in ourselves a couple of nights owls I remain chivalrous I only have eyes for you let's keep it adventurous stay outside til 2 drive you back home, help you out of the car walk you to your doorway, it isn't that far yet you ask me inside, to which I cant deny I'm brought to your room, I say it's been a beautiful night put on a horror flick, a groovy decision give you a back massage, I'll try with precision you get into it, things are getting intimate And this is where I may need a minute when I go past this barrier I get a bit scarier promise I'm romantic, talk to you in trans-atlantic

In an emotional state, feelin the wisps I wonder what it is & then it hits it is a wonder itself that I feel an attraction to distractions wont let me heal but an attraction to the glow will let me know quite exactly the direction I wanna go if I use the glows essence as a guide then it will make it much smoother of a ride, so I tried reachin it, & because I feel it reaches me the stars as my witness, literally infatuated with the moon, starin out the window of my room, life changing if I let it be I cant set it free, never had it but I better be letting it connect to me, not dissecting me but protecting me from my self doubts, despair, writers blocks & bad energy I'm aware of the synergy betwixt me & our organic satellite inspiration pushed all the way into the night and dont forget the day, every now & then lookin up at blue skies, see the moon chillin so I make the right decision, make the excision solar plexus sphere shows that I follow the pale light walkin through the woods, in a trance, middle of the night dark blue, silence around me, a beautiful sight memories fade, and blur yet I know it's my 1st memory and my 1st word, so absurd clinging onto your sliver when you're full I take a slice, consider it delivered aim at you take an arrow out of my quiver it is time to shoot for the moon striving for a bit bigger memories fade, and blur yet I know it's my 1st memory and my 1st word, so absurd clinging onto your sliver when you're full I take a slice, consider it delivered aim at you take an arrow out of my quiver it is time to shoot for the moon striving for a bit bigger